Thinking about this:

I've gone through a "funk" this last week; it was not fun. I was feeling a little ashamed for going through it, but I had some great realizations while I did, so I'm ok that I had the "funk", I think we all go through them once in a while.
So what did I learn you ask? I don't know if you really care, but for my own sake, I will write them down and I guess if you read on you will find out...
I've seen with myself that it's the little things that really sustain my testimony of Jesus Christ: Going to church, reading the scriptures, baring my testimony.
(I know that these are primary answers and I should have known them without going through anything, but unfortunately, I learn better by making mistakes, I guess it sticks better to my little brain this way.) Satan really gets a hold of you when you are not doing these little things, doubts creep in, things that you were sure about, don't seem so certain anymore.
I had the opportunity to defend, (not really defend but kind of to myself defend)why I want the life I do for my children and our family to a friend the other day. I tell you, sharing that testimony really made me remember why I love my Savior, why I want my children to have strong testimonies and why I'm alright with things in my life right now because it will help with these things later on - it WILL be worth it, I know it will and that gets me all excited about life again. :)

Kind of a different subject, but I wanted to also record a couple things I learned yesterday while I was reading my scriptures, again, these are things that I've read before, but they obviously didn't ever sink in, but you know when things just "hit" you sometimes? These totally stuck out while reading and I was a little stunned, because I had never realized it this way before, ok, here we go:
In Ether 12:34 it says: "And now I know that this love which thou hast had for the children of men is charity; wherefore, except men shall have charity they cannot inherit that place which thou hast prepared in the mansions of thy Father."
I think why this "hit" me so hard when I read it is because that is exactly what I've been struggling with the past couple weeks, charity. Charity=the pure love of Christ. I haven't been showing charity at all lately...
I just noticed this scripture about hope while I was finding the one about charity and I love it, it's in the same chapter, verse 32: "And I also remember that thou hast said that thou hast prepared a house for man, yea, even among the mansions of thy Father, in which man might have a more excellent hope; wherefore man must hope, or he cannot receive an inheritance in the place which thou hast prepared."
Faith, Hope and Charity are so important.
I feel like this post is so juvenile, because really, I've learned this my whole life, it should be en grained in me especially since I'm no spring chicken! I've really taken the gospel for granted, I feel like I'm really wanting and willing to learn more now, I guess it's better late than never.
Ok this is getting really long, but I do have one more scripture that really stunned me. I know I've read this scripture lots of times before, but I've never realized this so I guess this time reading it, I was actually paying attention and not zoning out and just reading with my eyes! :)
Moroni 7:9, "And likewise also is it counted evil unto a man, if he shall pray and not with real intent of heart; yea, and it profiteth him nothing, for God receiveth none such."
EVIL? I didn't ever think of it as evil. I was thinking about this last night, how many times I have gone to bed late and said my prayers, but didn't really pay attention to what I was saying, I just said them so I could feel good about going to sleep...But as I was thinking about this, I had the thought that I need to remember who I'm speaking to when I'm praying. If He was standing in front of me I would not be talking to him so nonchalant.
Wow, you made it clear to the end! That means you love me and I thank you for caring about what I think! :)